Why I Blog

I want to remember.

I want to remember certain feelings and experiences that I have with my children. The experiences I have with my family. Time goes by so fast, like a blink of an eye. I only have so many years with my kids before they are grown, out of the house, and have families of their own. I want to remember how I felt when Christian ran up to me, arms outstretched to give me a hug, and tell me in his sweet baby voice, "I love you Mommy."

I want to remember singing to Elias his special song and lifting him out of the bath, wrapping him in a towel while saying, "snug as a bug in a rug! Snug as a Tadpole in a rug," and see that smile that melts my heart appear across his face as I say it.

I want to remember the times Mark and I share; learning and growing together and we navigate new parenthood and what our relationship means as we continue to learn new insights about one another.

I want to remember the big things as well as the small. I also keep a journal of things to remember about this time and stage in our lives, but having something online ensures that it won't ever be lost or destroyed accidentally.

In short, I want to remember the life that we have right now (and in the future), because despite all the negativity and the doomsday seekers out there, whom it seems wish to focus on the petty aspects of life (mommy wars anyone?), there is so much beauty in the world. When I am upset, down, or prone to focus on negativity, all I have to do is look at my children and husband and know that everything is actually ok because they are in my world.

Making the most of life

Today Mark and I saw a movie called 'About Time'...definitely my kind of movie...poor Mark :) But he rather enjoyed it as well. It is not your typical "silver screen" movie, it is more of an art house film. The humor is quick and dry, the cast impeccable, and the location was idyllic (at least to me!) being set in various parts of England. Plus, any movie that begins and ends with Ben Folds' song 'The Luckiest' has to be a winner...for me. :)

But, it wasn't the scenery, the location, or the type of movie that really caught my attention, but rather the message that both Mark and I took away from the movie. Basically, it is about a man who learns through his father that he can travel back in time at will. It will only work with his past, no one else's. The young man quickly finds out that he can correct wrong things or mistakes he has made and even spend extra time with the people he loves. However, in the end he realizes that he doesn't need to time travel anymore to really appreciate the time he has with his family and those he loves. He realizes that all he needs to do is live life like every day was his last. Try not to get so stressed about situations and appreciate all the little things that life brings him.

I realize what a valuable lesson I could learn from this movie. So many days I let little things stress me out, irritate and worry me that I lose out in really living life freely and appreciating the people in my life. For instance, two weeks ago, our SUV was stolen right out of our driveway. Naturally, this has caused us days and night of worry, not just financially, but safety wise as well. I have become paranoid every time I get up to go to work and worried that when I go out our rental car, or the car that I drive will also be missing. I worry about if those who stole the car came back and decided to rob us or do harm to the children...the list goes on and on. One thing I have forgotten is the fact that the only thing that was taken was the vehicle. If I had left the house literally one minute before I did I would have caught them. I was annoyed at myself for putting my keys elsewhere the night before and causing me that one minute delay, but I have been reminded that had I caught them there is no telling what they might have done. They could have run off, but they also could have done a lot worse.

There are also so many days that I am stressed because of work and finances; annoyed and irritated at little things such as bad drivers, traffic and other meaningless day to day things. Up until now, I have not really thought about making the most of every day...in fact many times I thought I was. But I definitely realize how I have been taking life and others lives for granted. There is so much in my life to be thankful for and I am just wasting every day by being stressed, worried and annoyed by little things. Above all, I need to be grateful that there is love and laughter in my life. I have a faith in God that allows me a hope and future. I have an amazing husband and two wonderful little boys that I am blessed to call my family. There should be nothing stopping me from making the most of every day and appreciating every part of every day because I am part of the day and so are the ones that I love.

Birthday Happenings

Mark's birthday is today, and poor guy had to wait it out until the end of the work day to open any gifts. I gave him the option of giving him his gifts before work, but because I leave so early (5:45am), he chose to wait. :)

Christian and one of the girls who watches him and Elias made him a sweet birthday card.


I adore this picture.


He loved the Cowboys tickets I got him


Today I have loved you for 2,189 days

I also made him an alphabet of love book. I bought a plain sketchbook from Barnes and Noble and went through the alphabet to tell him how much I love him.

Christian and I then made Mark his favorite cupcakes, Red Velvet. He could hardly wait until his favorite dinner (Pot Roast) was finished so he could devour a cupcake or two. Ha!


Happy Birthday to my spectacular husband. I truly am the luckiest because of him.

The Luckiest

I don't get many things right the first time
In fact, I am told that a lot
Now I know all the wrong turns
The stumbles and falls brought me here

And where was I before the day
That I first saw your lovely face?
Now I see it every day

And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

What if I'd been born 50 years before you
In a house on the street where you live?
Maybe I'd be outside as you passed on your bike
Would I know?

And in a wide sea of eyes
I see one pair that I recognize

And I know
That I am
I am
I am
The luckiest

I love you more than I have
Ever found a way to say to you

Next door there's an old man who lived to his 90s
And one day passed away in his sleep
And his wife, she stayed for a couple of days
And passed away

I'm sorry, I know that's
A strange way to tell you
That I know we belong

That I know
That I am
The luckiest

Lyrics and music by Ben Folds